Ever since I was brought out to this world, I have always been a healthy baby. I was one of the biggest kid in the class, and among with my cousins, I was also the chubby one (there are actually two of us two of us, you know who you are. Peace out!) But that was not a factor of any biases in terms of attention. I have always been loved by my family and has been accepted. When I was watching the show, there were stories about how they were judged by the society, they were mocked and even treated unfairly. And it is a sad reality of how some of these people are being questioned as to who they are. It has brought depression and trauma and even their self concept was affected too.
I am not denying that I for one experienced such bullies. When I was in high school, I was a fat girl and I have accepted that. But despite of my physical attribute, I was a graceful dancer. I was part of the Dance Society and even the Cheerleading squad. I can do cartwheel, make a split, do high jumps and even back bends. I was flexible. I participated in school programs and I danced in front of 500 students and faculty. But you know what, there's a flashback of memory that I would never ever forget. In one of our performance, I was in front at that time dancing, there were group of people that were just booing and I'm like WTH, is it me? As I looked around, it was just me who was oversized, it was just me who was odd, it was just me and no one else. And from that incident, there was a constant visit from a group of guys who keeps on following me wherever I go and starts bashing me, and they were just screaming "BABOY! BABOY! HALA GA LINOG! (PIG! PIG! IT FEELS LIKE EARTHQUAKE!) You know what, I sulk myself in shame. I was terribly upset about myself and the world. But what else can I do? But to accept the reality, that this is me. And I am not changing myself because of people who doesn't like how I look. So when I was in my senior year in highschool, I stopped joining in all of my extra curricular activities and concentrated on other things. And I decided to move on.
Looking back, it was such a painful experience but it made me realize that because of those people I am much stronger and more confident about myself. I am far beyond blessed that I have come a long way and I have been doing great in my life right now. It is not me who is a loser but those people who are close minded and judgmental. Yes! I maybe big, but I also have a big heart and mind that choses to live without stepping anybody shoes, to believe in myself that I can conquer fears and to become a better person not just for someone but for me.
So, here is my message to all those men and women who are going through these problems, don't be afraid to reveal yourself to the world. You deserve the life you have and not by what others say about you. You are not in this world to be measured by your weight, but you are here to be a voice of reality. If you think that because you are an extra pound bigger and you don't deserve any happiness in this world, think the other way. Everyone deserves to be happy. Everyone deserves respect. Everyone deserves to be who they are. I am not saying that you shouldn't be trying to lose some of the extra baggages, but it is a choice that you should be making. You are beautiful and you need to love yourself more than anything else.
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