Big Leap

Today, I decided to make a difference in my life. I always keep on saying that I will move forward but I haven't really made such a big leap (aside from coming here in the land of milk and honey). Yes! I have been living here in New York City for almost 4 years but I am still the same old me, childish but dreamy. I want to chase those dreams that I have for myself, and today will mark the start of it.

My parents brought me here not just because of uniting us as family, but more of preparing me for the future that lies ahead. All my life, I was just the happy-go-lucky person, always and will always be full of positive things and thoughts about everything. I have gained so many friends in my journey and did had some critiques along the way but they were never a distraction of how should I live my life. As a matter of fact, they were an inspiration as to why I have been very strong all this time. I left the life in Cagayan de Oro where I was just "spoon-fed"by my parents' earning dollars, where I was just splurging and having fun, where I can just drive my car and can go wherever I want, where I felt powerful, where it was just me against the world and where I was just in the peak of everything else. I never regretted any moment of it because it will always be part of who I am.

As much as I wanted to go back and relive all those precious memories, I just want to cherish all of it and smile that I survived that crazy lifestyle. And that crazy lifestyle I have already outgrown. 

My new life here is totally different from what I was used to. I am more independent than I was, much braver and stronger, more grounded and more likely a wonder woman. I wanted to prove so many things to myself, to my family and to all those people who believed in me and to those who mocked me, that in the life we are all living, it is us who will shape our future, it is us who will make a difference and it is in our choices as to how and who will we be. 

So what will your future be like? Make a choice and let it happen. :)